Guess what???

Hi guys, we went to the doctor on Wednesday and everything looks great. I'm only 11 weeks but guess what we saw?????? We are having a BOY!!!!!

At first I was a bit shocked because we were not excepting to know the sex we were excited enough to see our baby. But when the lady said " oh I think I know what you are having!" both of us were in total shocked!! She zoom in and there it was =) my husband was going crazy he's so happy! This baby carries the family's last name he will be the III. I really thought this pregnancy was a girl, but this is going to be a Mami's boy. I can't wait!!

Thank God for my little boy, we can't wait to meet him!!

The Keys

We just got back from the Keys, we needed a vacation so we went for a week. We had a great time. I look so weird in a bikini lol, my hubby says that I look beautiful but I look different, I have no waist with a little belly and big boobs.

This week I have an appointment on Wednesday and I really hope we can see Monkey Do. Here are a few pictures from the weekend, I hope you like them.

My Prayer Everynight for All of Us

Hi Ladies, this is a prayer that I pray every single night for each and every one of you. I hope you like it.


Prayer for Motherhood:

Lovely Lady of La Leche, most loving mother of the Child Jesus, and my mother, listen to my humble prayers. Your motherly heart knows my every wish, my every need. To you only, His spotless Virgin Mother, has your Divine Son given to understand the sentiments which fill my soul. Yours was the sacred privilege of being the Mother of the Savior. Intercede with him now, my loving Mother, that, in accordance with his will, I may become the mother of other children of our heavenly Father. This I ask, Our Lady of La Leche, in the Name of your Divine Son, My Lord and Redeemer. Amen.

9 Weeks

Hi ladies, we are 9 weeks already! Time is going by so fast. I'm still not feeling 100% but I'm a lot better than before. The only thing that I have now is major headaches. Even though my doctor said that I can take Tylenol I feel guilty taking it. So for now I'm just drinking a lot of water and praying that they go away soon. Here's a picture from last week.

Monkey Do at 8 weeks!

How far along: 9 weeks

How big is the baby: The size of a grape

Total Weight Gain: 1.5 lbs, my waist is gone don't look so cute in a bikini, oh well

Maternity Clothes: None, I still fit into my skinny jeans but I'm sure not for long they are a bit tight

Sleep: I'm not sleeping well at all, I thought the body pillow was going to help me but I don't like it anymore. I sleep for 4 hours straight and after that I wake up for about 2 hours. I always go back to sleep when I have about an hour left.

Movement: Too early, but can't wait!

Food Cravings: Lemon Sorbet from Coldstone!! Yummy!!

What I miss: I miss sleeping well, but it's all worth it.

What I'm looking forward to: I'm looking forward my next appt at 11 weeks

Milestones: We are 2 months and 1 week =)

And Baby Will Make 3!, I got the questionnaire from you website, I hope you don't mind. XOXO

I'm back =)

Hi!!!! I'm sorry that I have been lost, but since I was on bedrest for the past two weeks I was sooooo tired of my labtop and TV that I gave it up until today. I promise I will catch up with all of your blogs this week.

I'm finally starting to enjoy my pregnancy, I don't have any more spotting or cramping Yayyyy. My doctor knew what he was talking about. We went on week 6.... a week and 2 days ago and we heard the HEART BEAT!! It was the most amazing thing we have ever heard. The heart beat was 111 bpm and my doctor said that it was great since I was only 6 weeks. Dr. H said that I was ready to go to my regular OBGYN, I was so happy but sad at the same time. I love my doctor and all the nurses. I cried like a baby (I think my hormones are all over the place because I cry for everything) he gave me a huge hug and made me promise that I was going to go back to show him my belly and the baby when he/she is born. I wanted to do something nice of them so I got them this cookie basket below, that it says "For all you do... Thank you". They were really amazing to me I was in that office almost every week for the past 7 months. I think I have the right to miss them.

So moving on to my OB, he's one of the best in Miami if not the best, and I'm very blessed because him and his wife have been friends with my in laws since they were kids so they are like family. He called me this week to see how I was doing and when I was going to go see him. Best part I have his and his wife's cellphone and his house number lol, I hope I never have to call him but it's just good to have it.

Last week was our three year anniversary!!! We were going to St. Maarten but we cancelled the trip since I'm not feeling too well and I can't drink or party. We will be there next year for sure =)

A bit Bored...

I have been on bed rest since Friday. On Saturday night my hubby's family came over and I kept walking around and helping my hubby with dinner because I felt fine I didn't have any cramps or spotting. But Sunday at 2am I went to the bathroom and I had red blood not much just a little bit but it was very scary. I waited to see if I had more and after that it was just brown not red. I didn't sleep all night praying to God that everything was fine. On Sunday morning I was so sad, I felt that it was my fault that I was spotting. We had this big family lunch on Mother's Day that I was not able to go, I didn't want to move from my bed.


Since Sunday morning I have not had any spotting I have been home on the couch or in bed all day. My amazing mom came over today, she cleaned, cooked and did laundry for me. She's really an angel. I love her so much!! I don't know what I would do without her. My husband is also amazing, he doesn't let me do anything he takes Austin out for walks and cooks for me. My friends also have come to visit me. I feel very blessed to have all this people that care so much about me and Monkey Do. I just can't wait to get up from here and move on.




I go back to the doctor on Friday and hopefully I'm off bed rest and we can hear the baby's heart beat. I have not gained any weight and the only thing that has grown are my boobs they are huge!! But I guess that's a good thing to have lol. I'm taking pictures every week here are the pictures from 5 weeks. I will be 6 weeks on Friday, can't wait!!

Little Monkey Do's first picture

Well here is the first picture of our little miracle!! It's the small circle in the middle. The good news is that the baby's size is perfect and the bleeding and cramping are fine. The bad news is that I have 3 huge cyst and my ovaries are really swollen as well. So that's why I'm feeling so uncomfortable and extremely bloated. I need to be on bed rest for 10 more days. No working out, heavy lifting or sex..ughhh poor hubby. We go back next Friday to do another sonogram and see if the cyst are getting smaller and probably the baby's heart beat.We also did blood work and my Beta came back at 3,754 and the nurse said it was an awesome number Wohooo.

I hope everybody has an excellent weekend with their loves one!

Monkey Do first letter from Daddy

4 WEEKS

May 5, 2010

My dearest Little Monkey Do,

On February 18, 2000, I met Mami while I was at work. Here we are 10 years later, married for soon to be three, and waiting for you to grow and be in our lives. Like Mami, I have been waiting for you and praying for you to come. Although we waited a little, I knew that it was whenever God wanted to send you that you would come. And I am glad it was you. I love you so much and I don’t know you yet. I don’t know what color your eyes are going to be. I don’t know if you are going to have a lot of hair or a little like me (me now, when I was little I had A LOT of hair, I’ll show you in the pictures). I don’t know if you are going to be tall or short. What I do know is that I already love you more than words can explain. Your mother and I have brought you here by the love of God and will always make sure that you know that you are the most special gift God has ever given us.

I promise you that I will live every second of my life making sure that you are safe and that nothing will ever happen to you. You are very lucky to have the wonderful mother that you do. She is an amazing woman who loves you more than anything; just as I do. We are so excited to meet you in 8 months. I know that Mami already explained to you why we call you Monkey Do now, but know that Mami and I call each other that out of love. So if we call you Monkey Do now, it’s because we love you and you are a part of us. I pray for you every chance I get and I ask God to keep you and Mami safe so that we can meet soon.

I love you with all I have and more.!

Papi

p.s.

Austin can’t wait to play with you!

I have the sweetest husband in the world, this letter made me cry so much. Thank you God for all of blessings.

Bed Rest =(

Hi ladies, sorry that I have been MIA but this week has been overwhelming and is not over yet. We have been telling our families and closest friends that we are pregnant. I took pictures and videos and I'm making a little movie that should be ready soon so you guys can see everybodys reaction. It was so amazing, my parents and in laws were beyond happy. For my parents this will be their first grandchild and for my in laws the second. I feel so blessed!

So since last week I have been spotting a little bit with cramps. I didn't have any more spotting Tuesday and yesterday I got a lot more than before so I freaked out. Thank God that I'm friends with the nurse at Dr. H office so I called her and Dr. H called me within 5 minutes and asked me a bunch of questions. Apparently this is very normal but for me it's so scary! It took us 7 months to make this baby and I don't want to lose it! I have an appointment tomorrow to you see if I have any bleeding inside, I'm not sure if they are going to do a sonogram since they can't see anything yet but I really hope they do.... even a little dot will make me the happiest girl on earth. I just want to make sure that everything is fine. For now I'm on bed rest until tomorrow.

Please little Monkey Do stay in there for Mami, we love you so much already!!

Dear God thank you for our baby!!

I can't believe what I'm about to write this but the results are in and WE ARE PREGNANT!!!!! My heart is full of love and happiness. This is the most amazing feeling in the world.

Last night we were getting ready for the corporate run and I went to the bathroom and I was spotting. Immediately I thought it was over. I came out of the bathroom and told my husband that I had gotten my period and that I didn't want to talk about it just wanted to move on to the next cycle. But as I was saying that tears were just coming down my face I felt my heart breaking into million pieces. So my hubby tells me "it's not over yet, let's wait until tomorrow". He went to Walgreens and got me a test. I for sure thought it was going to come out NEGATIVE. We left the room and started packing the car with the stuff that we needed for the run. We both came back inside the house and my husband gets the test and start bawling......I felt so bad for him because I knew how much he wanted for us to be pregnant and all of the sudden he shows me the test and I couldn't believe. WE ARE PREGNANT!!!

I called the nurse right away and told her that I was spotting but the test came back positive. She said that I couldn't run or even walk the 5k. I needed to be on bed rest, no sex and no heavy lifting to just take it easy. Today we went for blood work and it came back perfect!! I don't have anymore spotting but I do have a little bit of cramping and the Dr.H said that it was normal. We go back on May 14Th for our first ultrasounds and we can't wait!! Tonight we are telling our families.

Thank you God and Virgen of La Leche for blessing us with this amazing miracle and thank you all supporting us through this incredible journey. Please pray for us that this baby grows very healthy. We are soooooo happy!!!

Is it Friday yet?

Hi ladies, I hope everybody had an awesome weekend. On Friday we went to my SIL house to book our trip in June, they are our traveling partners we have a blast together. On Saturday I took care of my cousin's babies during the day and at night we had movie night we our friends (both pregnant) at our house. Sunday we spent the day at Lincold Road drinking German beer and that was a lot of fun. Even thought I don't drink beer I like to go and people watch.

So Friday is the big day, but for some weird reason I'm FREAKING out!!! I have cramps at least four times a day, is that normal? So I keep going to the bathroom every half an hour to check and see if I got my period ughhhhh, so far nothing thank God. I called the nurse which works for Dr. H and I'm helping with her wedding and asked her about the cramps. She said that since my ovaries were so big they are going back to their normal size and that's why I have cramps..but I don't know they feel just like period cramps. I'm so scared to see blood!!

I hope Friday comes very very soon and without my period!!

Footprints in the Sand

Every first and third Wednesday of the month we have prayer group with 8 couples that are really good friends with us and that also Catholic and yesterday it was at our house. Can you believe every single girl was pregnant expect me??? I felt so uncomfortable!! The only thing they would talk about was babies babies babies. I kept trying to change the conversation but it was impossible and of course the little remarks about when and why we were waiting bla bla bla was getting to me. Since we were leading prayer group my husband spoke about having Patience and how God's timing is always better than ours. For a moment there I thought I was going to start crying but I kept thinking that it was ok and that our time was probably here or that it was going to come soon. I know that he choose this topic because of me because he's a very patience person but I'm not and this has been the hardest thing we have ever gone through. Here's a poem that I always read and I know he's carrying me right now through this dark times. Everytime that I read it I cry because I have felt alone and/or forgotten so many times and I know that he has always been there with me while I was crying and suffering.




Thank you all for your great comments. Since there is 4 pregnant friends that are walking the Cooperate run I told them yesterday that I rather walk because my knee has been hurting and my trainer said to walk not run. They were all happy because I was walking with them =)

I have 8 days to go and time is going by sooooooo slow!! I feel like I'm going a bit crazy, the only thing that I think of is if I'm pregnant or not ahhhh. I need Friday April 30th to get here 911!!

Running Drama

Good morning ladies, I went to sleep yesterday thinking if I was already getting pregnancy symptoms...ummmm Wrong! I google today side effects of Progesterone Suppositories and they mimic every pregnancy symptoms. My boobs are super sore and they are bigger, I get a little bit nausea if I don't eat for a long period of time, I'm super bloated and I get night sweats...all due to the suppositories. On top of everything every time that you go to the bathroom you get this oily stuff..Gross! Does anybody know any other source of progesterone that is less messy?

I have 10 more days to go do blood work, but next week on Wednesday I have the corporate run and my friends and I always run it and we have an awesome time trying to pass each other. After we BBQ and drink all night. But this year I don't know what to do, my husband doesn't want me to run at all, which I understand him. He tells me he doesn't want to risk anything after everything we have been through. But what do I say? How I'm going to tell my friends sorry I can run or drink after..they are going to be suspicious for sure! I need to come up with a plan soon, two of my friends are pregnant so I can walk with them but I have never done that. I'm extremely competitive and love to beat their running time. Any ideas on what should I do??

Attached is a picture of my hubby's nephew he's adorable! I can't wait for this to be us.

Random Facts about me

1. I'm not the world greatest speller jaja I'm sure you guys know that by now
2. My second toe is bigger than my big toe
3. I played the piano since I was 6 years until I graduated at 15 and have never played since
4. I love to drink wine specially with a great meal
5. I hate wet sand but I love the beach
6. My favorite TV shows are Weeds, Modern Family, Greys Anatomy, Divine Design, Giuliana and Bill and Desperate House wife
7. Speaking about TV I probably watch TV less than 4 hours a week..DH is a tv hogger
8. My hubby is as handsome as the first day that I met him (I think now he's hotter)
9. I saw snow for the first time when I was 20 years old
10. First time that I went to Europe was last year
11. I hate horror movies
12. I have never had surgery
13. My hubby broke my wrist 4 years after we were dating playing tackle football ouchhhh, made him blow dry my hair everyday
14. My parents have been married and divorced twice to each other
15. I have 5 best friends
16. I tent to laugh a lot and loud
17. I think my husband is the funniest person I know
18. I hate doing laundry
19. Love to decorate my house
20. Don't like the smell of cigarettes
21. I'm the decorator for my church
22. My sister is 15 years younger than me
23. Sunflowers and Orchids are my favorite flowers
24. Learned how to speak English at 13yrs old my first language is Spanish
25. My first job was working at CVS in the pharmacy at 17 years old
26. Met my husband opening my back account
27. My grandparents were married for 45 years
28. Love to Dance and sign specially driving
29. I have the most amazing English bulldog in the world, I love him so much
30. I consider you guys my friends
31. I hate getting older (its pretty scary)
32. I wish I can be like mom when I have kids
33. I love talking to old people
34. My best vacation is going to an island with a great beach
35. I hate cold weather
36. We want 4 kids
37. Love to hear a child laugh
38. My favorite movies are "Old School", "Napoleon Dynamite", "Hangover", "The notebook"
39. I love the sounds of the ocean waves
40. My dream job will be an entertaiment reporter
41. I have a sweet tooth, would trade any meal for dessert
42. I'm the oldest out of 17 cousins just from my mom's side
43. I was born in Cuba
44. I walk while texting or BBM
45. I'm a conservative
46. My favorite afternoon with my hubby and friends is to go to brunch and go bar hopping all day
47. I would love to write a book for children
48. Love expensive purses (I'm limited to one a year =)
49. Our most romantic picnic was in front of the Eiffel tower
50. I'm a civil engineer (love math)
51. I need to sleep 8 hours every night
52. Was never a morning person until I got married
53. Went to Bora Bora for our honeymoon
54. Believe that my hubby can be an awesome motivational speaker
55. I'm only 5'2'' and DH is 6'3''
56. Dislike Snakes and crocodiles
57. I pray to God every night
58. My favorite color is yellow
59. I love nothing more than to see others happy
60. I have not cried in a month wohoooo
61. I love to have get together at my house at least once a week
62. I consider my selft extremely lucky for the life that I have
63. Still get butterflies in my stomach when DH comes back from a trip
64. Would never leave my house without doing my hair and makeup
65. I don't like my belly button
66. In Cuba I went to a music school only 12 kids per class
67. I had the best childhood, I wish my kids can be as happy as I was as a child
68. Obsessed with MAC makeup
69. I'm always late
70. I get really hyper at night time

Baby making is going well, I made an appointment for April 30th to do blood work..so let the countdown begin..14 more days. I hope everybody has an amazing weekend!

Soooo happy!

Hi ladies, I'm so sorry that I have been MIA but my computer got a virus and I took it to Best Buy and today was when I got it back. Let me tell you what has been going on since Monday, I went for blood work and a sonogram and the follicles were going slowly... Tuesday was the same thing and today my biggest follicle was 19mm and I have two that are 16mm. Here's the plan trigger tonight and have intercourse tomorrow and Friday. OMG I can't believe this is really happening!!! I ask each and every one of you to please say a little prayer for us, this is so unreal and I know that God will take care of us like he always does. I REALLY hope this is it!!

The inside of my elbows are sooooo bruised from taking so much blood out I keep trying to hide them but yesterday one of my friend asked me if I was really into donating blood jaja I told her yes that my veins move and that's why I have so many bruises. Oh well I hate to lie but I couldn't tell her what is really going on. I just found out on sunday that one of my best friends ( Betsy the mother of my god-daughther) is pregnant again. I'M SO HAPPY!! If I also get pregnant the babies will grow up together and that would be so amazing.

Everything is in God's hands and I trust him with all my heart. I know that he will bless us with a child wether is now or later, so I really need to let go and let God! Wohoooo I'm very excited!!

There's Hope...

Hi Ladies, today I went to the doctor bright and early and on the ultrasound I had a few 10mm follicles and my biggest one was 13mm. I was a bit shocked because on CD 12 last cycle my follicles were 16mm,18mm, 19mm and 20mm, but the nurse said since I have a lower dose this time my follies are growing a bit slow, which is fine because I really don't want to have another cycle cancelled. My doctor only wants one or two follicles maximum so I'm hoping for maybe one more to get big so I have a better chance. My estrogen went from 99 to 375 so I'm super excited!!!! Let's go Follies, this is our cycle!!! We go back Monday morning for more monitoring and hopefully I can trigger either Tuesday or Wednesday.

How's everyone's weekend ? Last night we went to dinner with great friends and we had a really nice time. Tonight we are going to an awesome restaurant in South Beach that I've been wanting to go for a while, so my amazing hubby is taking me tonight for a romantic date...I'm a lucky girl! I hope everybody is having a great weekend, thank you for all of your great comments last post.

A Bit Scared......

Hi ladies, today I went to my appointment at 10am and was happy to see that my follies are growing. Today I had 25 follicles ahhhhh, 7 more than Sunday but only 8 are growing strong...they are between 8mm and 10mm. The nurse just called me to let me know that my Estrogen level was not high enough and they are increasing my dosage. She said that on Sunday it was 77 and today was 99. Does anybody knows what that means? I'm so scared that they will cancel this cycle because of this. I asked her if it was really bad and she said that by increasing my dose they level should increase. I have never had this problem before. Ughhh I feel that every cycle I have a new challenge..this is exhausting!

I'm trying really hard to stay POSITIVE, I keep telling myself "It's going to work". So here's the plan I will increase my dose by 75 IU and I go back on saturday for more blood work and an ultrasounds. Has anybody had this problem before? What should my level be at CD 9? Please say a little prayer for us.

Beach time and I feel fat!

Hi ladies, thank you so much for your sweet comments. I'm friends with a nurse from Dr. H office and she saw my report from Sunday (18 follicles) and told me that she hopes that only a few follicles grow if not Dr. H said that he was going to cancel my cycle again. Ughhhhhhhh I hope I only get 2 or 3 max. We will see tomorrow.

So today I went to the beach with my best friend to celebrate her birthday (I know we celebrate sooo many birthdays this month) and I looked at all my bikinis and all of them make me look so chubby !! Last month since I was taking birth control I lose the pounds that I gained from the previous cycle (I gained 5 pounds with the injections) but now I'm back again. I feel so bulky this injections make me so bloated and it's just a horrible feeling because there's nothing that I can do, I'm working out, running and the pounds are still coming back.

On Sunday we are going out on the boat with some friends and I'm so not looking forward to it, this is going to be our life until the summer is over boat, beach, boat, beach, boat. Showing my belly now a days is a big deal for me and on top of everything I have a bruise in every single injection spot. Does this happen to everybody else or it's just me??? My next door neighbor also did the injections and she gained 23 pounds ahhhhhhhhhhh I don't mind gaining the weight if this means that I'm going to get pregnant but just to gain weight and not get pregnant is not fun. I'm going bikini shopping tomorrow I hope I can find something that makes me look thinner lol.

I want to wish my awesome friend, Such a Good Egg http://suchagoodegg.wordpress.com/ an awesome Happy Birthday!!!!!! Thank you for always supporting me, even though I have never met you in person I feel like I known you for years. Have a great birthday my friend, let this year be our year to get pregnant! XOXO

Happy Easter!

Happy Easter everybody! We woke up today at 5:30am and went to the most beautiful sunrise mass. The birds were singing and the sun was coming up it was just an amazing way to start Easter Sunday. After mass we went to breakfast since our appointment was not until 8:00am, and time was going by soooooo slow! I wanted to be in that room already. So we get to the office and I was called in within 5 minutes. They drew blood and did a sonogram. I have 10 follicles in my right ovary and 8 in my left ovary!!! Yayyyyyy!!! I was so happy, they are growing little by little. I felt so blessed, everything is looking great for this cycle. My doctor wants me to continue with the injections same dose (37.5 IU) and I go back on Wednesday.

I'm trying not to get wayyyyyy too happy because I have been here before and I know what can happen. But at the same time I want to stay POSITIVE and think that THIS IS going to be our cycle. Today was an awesome day, and I thank God for all our blessing. I have the best husband, family, dog, friends and bloggie friends in the world. Attached is a picture of my gorgeous Goddaughter. I hope everybody had a great Easter =)

Let's get this party started!

Hi ladies, I woke up today at 5:45 am to go to the doctor since my appointment was at 7:00 am (wayyyy to early for me) but I really didn't care because I was so excited to be back there again. So they didn't do blood work they just did a sonogram and everything looks great. I have about 7 follies in my right ovary and 6 on my left ovary. So here's the plan, tomorrow night I start the injections (Gonal F 37.5 IU) , take baby aspirin every day and go back on Easter Sunday at 8:00 am for blood work and a sonogram. I hope we have a few good follies =)

I'm so thankful that God is giving us this opportunity to cycle. Since last month we couldn't do anything I was so afraid that we were just going to seat on the sidelines again. It's so hard to just seat and wait, while everybody around you is getting pregnant and talking about babies all day long. I'm putting my heart and soul into this cycle, I have a really good feeling about it. I don't know if its because we are starting to cycle on holy week but I think this is it guys. I just have a feeling and even if I'm wrong I know that we will be parents one day. I JUST KNOW IT!

Back and Ready to Cycle!

Hi Ladies, I had an amazing weekend. Thank you all so much for the birthday wishes! The celebration started on Thursday night, some friends came over and we had wine and cake. On Friday we left to Key West and we had a blast! I really needed this weekend trip to relax. We spent the weekend drinking, eating, riding scooters and dancing, what a great way to celebrate my 29Th Birthday!! On Saturday night we went to a place that they only serve wine and desserts, it's called "Better than Sex" Wow!!! Even though I didn't think it was very than sex lol it really was delicious.

Guess what I got for my birthday??? I really do have the best hubby in the world. He got me a Nikon D5000!!!! I love to take pictures, and this camera is amazing. He also got me photography classes and two amazing lenses. I have been taking pictures all day. If anybody has one, any tips or suggestions are welcome.

My last birth control pill was on Saturday, so now I'm just waiting for my period. Period please come soon!! I can't wait to start cycling again. I have a really good feeling about this cycle, we are soooooo ready. I pray to God that this is our cycle. Since I just turned 29Th everybody was asking what we were waiting for to start having kids? Ughhhhhhh if they only knew. I hope I can tell everybody in a few months " We are pregnant"!!!!!!

I posted some pictures from this weekend, Enjoy!

Cyst Free!!!!!

OMG, my cysts are GONE!!!!!!! Thank you God!!!!! I'm so excited, this is all I really wanted for my birthday ladies and I GOT IT! Wow I feel so happy right now, I can't believe it. My doctor was very optimistic about this cycle. So here is the plan, I keep taking my last three BC pills and as soon as I get my period I will call the office and go in CD 3. My last pill is on Saturday so I really hope that my period comes either Sunday or Monday.

My husband went to the appointment with me and he was soooooo happy as well. He's the funniest and the most optimistic person I know, he's never sad always in a great mood, and he has been my rock through this long six months. Today when Dr. H said that my cysts were gone his eyes got watery and he had the biggest smile on his face. He told me " Baby, I told you that God was going to take care of us". I'm so blessed to have such an amazing and supportive partner! So thank you baby for always putting a smile on my face, I love you!

I'm starting to celebrate my birthday tomorrow. All my friends are coming over for some Tapas and wine, and on Friday morning a group of us are going to Key West to keep the party weekend going. Hey this may be my last year without a baby so I need to party it up right? I hope everybody has an amazing weekend. Thank you for all your comment and prayers =)

Anxious for Tomorrow!

Tomorrow I have a doctor's appointment at 10am and I'm soooooo excited! I really hope that my cysts are gone so we have move forward. This is really the only thing that I WANT for my birthday!! So God please only good news!

We are leaving to Key West this weekend with my parents and a couple of friends so it should be a really fun birthday. I already started tanning today since the temperature is 74 degree wohoooo!!! The cold weather is officially gone.

I have 4 birth control pills left, my last pill is on Saturday so by Sunday or Monday my period should come =). I was thinking of maybe starting acupuncture this cycle since some of you are doing it and you really like it. My only fear is the little needles. I know if we can start cycling again I would have to get a shot every day in my belly and blood drawn every other day. But I also know that it would help me a lot. I'm going to start looking to see if I have any Acupuncture clinics around my area.

We went to Europe last September for a month and after that trip we wanted to start trying for a baby. So as I was uploading all the pictures in Kodak Gallery to make an album for each country, and I started crying. How our lives have change after that trip, we had no worries about infertility we thought by December for sure we were going to be pregnant. Little did we know that Clomid was not going to work that I was going to developed cyst and that getting pregnant was not going to be easy. Sometimes I feel that I'm in a dark phase in my life which nobody can tell at all because I'm always laughing but deep down inside I know how I feel. I'm also very grateful because we are beyond blessed with everything else. But just seen everybody around me pregnant or with a baby makes me so sad. God really knows how much we want a child and I trust him 100% that we haven't gotten pregnant for a reason, that right now it's very hard for me to see and understand. I just want to get out of this dark stage and feel happy again. I really hope that this cycle is a great one and that we get our little blessing.

Attached are some pictures from Europe. Enjoy!

Relaxing weekend

Hi Ladies, I just got in the mail the Clearblue Easy Fertility Monitor!! I'm super excited to start using it. Has anybody used it before? I got it because last cycle I missed my ovulation by almost a week. Since I was on my own because my doctor wanted me to cancel the cycle since I had 4 mature follicles and he was scared that I was going to get pregnant with triplets or quadruplets, little did he know. I told him that we still wanted to try and he said we were on our own =(. So long story short we missed our ovulation days. I truly thought I was pregnant I had all the symptoms in the world. But it wasn't our time yet.

Since I'm still spotting a little bit even though I'm taking BC (9 days left) I'm going in next Wednesday for an ultrasound and blood work. I pray to God that the 3 cyst are gone and I'm ready to cycle. That would be the best birthday gift EVER!!!! I also lost 4lb of the 5lb that I gained during the injections last cycle. So I'm ready to start.

This weekend my husband is going hunting with his Dad and one of his friends. Sooooo because I'm such a chicken and can't stay home alone my mom and my little sister are staying with me for the whole weekend. Wohoooooo. On Friday we are going shopping, on Saturday we have a spa day and on Sunday my whole family is coming over for lunch. I love spending time with my family they make me laugh so much and I kind of forget about TTC for a while.

I thank all of you for reading my blog, I'm new at this blog thing but I'm starting to like it a lot, specially all your amazing stories so thank you!

What's going on in my little world

So the PGA tour is going on as I write this in my backyard, so there's tons of people walking around and the traffic around my house is insane! Last year we got tickets but I don't know if is just me but I find Golf super boring, we had a great time though because we were drinking and hanging out with our friends. This year I don't think we will get tickets since Tiger Woods is not even playing.

I have 11 days left on my BC yayyyyyy can't wait!! But on Sunday I completely forgot to take my pill and Monday morning I had a surprise visitor MY PERIOD! I took a pill yesterday and today but I'm still spotting. I'm so scared that the reason why I got my period is because the 3 huge cysts are still there ahhhh I would be so sad. But I don't feel anything, not even when I work out and do lunges or abs do I feel anything in my lower abdomen. Should I call my doctor? Or should I wait? I sure hope I didn't mess this up.

One of my best friends calls me today that she is late by 6 days what???? She's still in nursing school and her boyfriends lives in Atlanta. She was there for two weeks last month so she thinks that maybe something happened. We are doing a pregnancy test at my house tomorrow. I don't know how I'm going to react if it comes out positive! I really hope I can keep myself together. Of course I will be happy for her but at the same time I will be a bit sad that I'm still not pregnant.

What a great weekend!!

Hi ladies, I hope everybody had an amazing weekend. We partied like if we were 21 again jaja. Friday night was one of my friend's birthday and we went to a Club in South Beach that we used to go to a lot before we got married. I forgot how good those days were, not a care in the world....wow how time flies!!!! We got a little bit "happy" had a few drink and did many shots lol. It was an awesome night. We ended up eating pizza at 4am like we used to do 3 years ago.

On Saturday on of my best friends turned 30 and we also went to South Beach to a wine bar. We had an amazing time. My friend was sooooo happy and she had a blast. She has been kind of down since she lost her job a couple of weeks ago, and has not been able to find a new one. But after a few bottles of wines she was loving life. So it was a great night.

Today we went to mass, hang out with our families and had brunch with friends. So overall I had a great weekend, didn't really have time to think about TTC, thank God!

I have 13 days left on the BC and I can't wait to finish. I thought this wait time was going to be a lot harder but since I have been trying so hard to stay busy time is flying by. I'm going to end my weekend with the final episode of Giuliana and Bill. I love them!! Does anybody watch the show??? They are also having trouble in the baby making department and last episode they did IUI so today they will tell them if they are pregnant or not. She had a higher chance this time because she did the injections. I really hope they are!!

A little bit about my amazing life =)

I wanted to tell you guys a quick story about my life so you can get to know me better. I was born in Cuba, I came to the US with my whole family in 1993 . I started 8Th grade here in the US and that is where I learned how to speak English =). Went to High School and met 3 of my 5 best friend, Giuli, Denise and Danette the other two I met through college, Valeria and the other one is the wife of my hubby's best friend Betsy (my goddaughter's mom) . Went to college and graduated with a Civil Engineering degree. Worked for an amazing engineering company for 5 years but I didn't like the actual engineering work, it was wayyyyyyyyyyyy to boring. I'm very outgoing and love to meet and talk to people and in the engineering world people are not really like that. So I found myself planning all the company's events and I loved it! And eventually started my own company =)

How did I meet the love of my life? Well I was 18yrd old and engaged to a guy that left to the Navy ( Crazy I know) and my mom and I decided to go to the bank and open a checking account for me since I was already old enough. So I walk into the bank and this handsome guys comes up to me and tells me I will be right with you. Mind you the bank was full of customers that had been waiting for a while but he got me right in, he made me wait less than 5 minutes. So as soon as we sat down he asked me for my drivers license. When he sees my address he start asking "You live at 4530 sw 103 street? Are you sure is not NW? " I said yes that's my address so he continues to ask "is your neighbor this crazy guy that has a truck?" and I said yes that's my neighbor. At this point I was like wow what a stalker!!! and he says YOU ARE MY NEIGHBOR!!!!! I thought, What??? How come I have never seen this hot guy? It turns out we lived a house away from each other for 8 years and had never seen each other. So after that everything was history. We dated for 5 years before we got engaged and last February made 10 years that we have been together in total counting boyfriend and girlfriend, engagement and marriage. Wow!!! Time goes by so fast!!!! Believe it or not I still get butterflies in my stomach when he comes back from a business trip. I love him more and more everyday. He really is the best husband in the world.

I'm so happy with my life, I have been extremely blessed with an amazing husband, doggie, family and friends. My family is huge and we have get togethers at least once a month we are very close. I also have a little sister that is 15 years younger than me she's 13 and she's my baby. My parents are amazing, very loving and my friends wow I couldn't ask for better friends. My dog Austin is my child and he's my partner, we take him everywhere with us.I feel very lucky to have the life that I have, I know God has a plan for us even though sometimes I feel frustrated and lost I know that he's there taking care of my only problem INFERTILITY.

So I hope I didn't put you guys to sleep with my boring story, but that's a little bit about me. As per the birth control count I have 17 days left but I'm still spotting, should I call my doctor?? Im keeping myself busy busy busy for now. I thank all of you for reading my blog, all of your stories are so amazing!!!

19 more days to go....

Hello bloggie friends, I had a great weekend. Saturday was my goddaughter birthday and it came out sooooooooooo cute. I got her the cutest Minnie Mouse dress, last week when I was in Disney and she got to wear it on her birthday. Even though almost all of my friends are pregnant and they were all at the party talking about babies, it was not that hard...maybe because I was drinking some wine and feeling great jaja. Sunday we had dinner with a really good friend of mine that I'm her wedding planner and of course they don't' have any babies yet so it was nice to disconnect from the baby talk for a while.

I'm feeling really good, I started working out again yesterday and eating super healthy. So I hope I can drop the five pounds that I gained during last cycle because of soooooo many follicles. I need to get my bikini body back before my birthday which I have 18 days to go. We are going to Key West with 8 more couples and everybody is in shape. I'm also planning my friend's bday she's the first one out of all of us to turn 30!!! So I want to do something really fun, just the girls maybe a spa day or a mini trip somewhere, any ideas?

I have 19 days to go with the birth control!! ahhh I really hope this three cysts are gone by next month so we can start again. Last night I kept waking up and thinking about this whole baby making journey. Why is it that some couples get pregnant so fast and others need to wait years before they get lucky? It's so emotionally exhausting!!!! But I have faith that we will be bless with a baby soon. Today Im taking care of my goddaughter and while I was feeding her I was thinking how ready Im for a baby. So God whenever you are READY WE ARE ALSO READY!

...let the countdown begin...

Good morning bloggies!! Beautiful morning here in Florida about 60 degrees and really sunny. Today is a very special day. My goddaughter Victoria is turning 1!!!!!! I'm totally in love with her, I take care of her at least twice a week for a few hours while her mommy works. The theme for the party is Mickey Mouse Club House. Since I just went to Disney last week I bought the cutest outfit to wear today, I will post pictures later.

Today is going to be a great day but very challenging too. Can you believe everybody at the party is either pregnant or already has a baby??? ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh crazy I know! So I just hope they don't ask me anything. I hate that stupid questions..so what are you guys waiting for?? You guys are next? bla bla bla.

I started taking my BC yesterday so I only have 20 days left, wohoooooooooooooo!! I really hope times goes by super fast. We have a BBQ tomorrow at some friends house and a movie date. So we will be busy.

What is everybody doing this weekend? I hope you have a great one.

Loving Disney

Hi guys, I feel a lot better today =), Disney World make me soooooooo happy! We are staying at the Animal Kingdom Resort and there's lots of animals walkding around, its very pretty and peaceful. I will post a couple of pictures. I think Im going to have a plan for the next 21 days starting on saturday, I need to be super busy so I don't think about the fact that I have three huge cyst in my right ovary. Here are some ideas:

• Redecorate the house



• Work out everyday



• Start planning our anniversary trip



• Organize the office



• Make photo albums for 2009



• Teach Austin (our English Bulldgod) a new trick

I hope I can accomplish all of them. I need to lose about 4 pounds from the injections that I took last cycle, I still feel very bloated and I can totally tell in my clothes, ahhhhhhhhh I gained weight for nothing =(

Talking about my english bulldog Austin, he makes me the happiest and proudest mommy in the world. We love him so much!!! Since I work from home he's my partner we go everywhere together Im totally in love with him. He's 2 years old.

Can't wait to go to Epcot tomorrow, we are going to drink around the world!!! Wohooooo

How did this happen?

I went to the doctor today because I got my period last night and they wanted to do blood work and a sonogram to see how everything goes going before starting the injections again. Well the minute that the nurse saw my ovaries she told me that I had a few cysts. There were three cyst and they are HUGE!!!!! I almost started crying while my doctor and the nurse were telling me that this is completely normal that this things happen and all I would heard was bla bla bla . Wow I'm not sure how this became so hard!

I feel so broken but the last thing that I'm going to do is give up. God has a plan and even though its very hard for me to understand now He will bless us with a child one day. My hubby and I are going to Disney World for 3 days so that should be a lot of fun so I won't think about this wasted cycle.

The good thing about this cycle is that I get to drink on my birthday and I can start working out again! Wohoooo

My Secret Place

Hello ladies, I don't even know how to start but here it goes. My name is Zully and I'm 28 years old (will be 29 in a couple of weeks ahhh). I have an amazing life, and feel extremely bless with the best husband, doggie, family and friends in the world. One thing that you should know about me is that I HATE to write, I'm a civil engineer/event planner so I love numbers and not letters. I started this blog because I think is a great way to release my emotions and meet amazing ladies that are going though the same thing that I'm struggling with, INFERTILITY!

A little bit of my story, I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome so I don't ovulate on my own and I would get my period once a year.

2000 February, Met my hubby at the bank he opened my checking acct when I was 18 yrs old and we realized we were next door neighbors for 5 years before we met. Love at first sight!!!
2005 December, Graduated a Civil Engineering degree yayyyyy (one of the happiest days of my life)
2006 September,We are engaged!!!
2007 May, We get married!!!
2008 Taking BBC we don't want babies yet
2009 February, Off BBC I want to clean my body
2009 September, went to Europe for a month
2009 October, Let's start trying Clomid 50mg, one follicle BFN
2009 November, Clomid 50mg again, no follicles that were big enough for ovulation (super sad)
2009 December, Clomid 150mg, one follicle BFN
2010 January, Clomid 150mg, no follicles
2010 January, met with my doctor and decided that Clomid was not for us lets move on to injections.
2010 February, started injections I felt super bloated
2010 February on CD 12 went to the doctor for a sonogram and had 4 mature follicles, my doctor wanted me to cancel the cycle thinking that it was too risky for the changes of multiples and we said no, we went on our own and yesterday I took a test and it was BFN

I had a great feeling about this cycle since we had so many follicles but it just didn't work. My heart broke in pieces after I saw the negative results. But today I'm feeling much better and ready to move on to the next cycle. I started spotting a little bit tomorrow and started getting period cramps which I should either Thursday or Friday. At least I know that I ovulated so that gives me peace of mind. I have faith that God is going to bless us with a little one and I just need to be patience. Thanks for reading my blog =)