Let's get this party started!

Hi ladies, I woke up today at 5:45 am to go to the doctor since my appointment was at 7:00 am (wayyyy to early for me) but I really didn't care because I was so excited to be back there again. So they didn't do blood work they just did a sonogram and everything looks great. I have about 7 follies in my right ovary and 6 on my left ovary. So here's the plan, tomorrow night I start the injections (Gonal F 37.5 IU) , take baby aspirin every day and go back on Easter Sunday at 8:00 am for blood work and a sonogram. I hope we have a few good follies =)

I'm so thankful that God is giving us this opportunity to cycle. Since last month we couldn't do anything I was so afraid that we were just going to seat on the sidelines again. It's so hard to just seat and wait, while everybody around you is getting pregnant and talking about babies all day long. I'm putting my heart and soul into this cycle, I have a really good feeling about it. I don't know if its because we are starting to cycle on holy week but I think this is it guys. I just have a feeling and even if I'm wrong I know that we will be parents one day. I JUST KNOW IT!

Back and Ready to Cycle!

Hi Ladies, I had an amazing weekend. Thank you all so much for the birthday wishes! The celebration started on Thursday night, some friends came over and we had wine and cake. On Friday we left to Key West and we had a blast! I really needed this weekend trip to relax. We spent the weekend drinking, eating, riding scooters and dancing, what a great way to celebrate my 29Th Birthday!! On Saturday night we went to a place that they only serve wine and desserts, it's called "Better than Sex" Wow!!! Even though I didn't think it was very than sex lol it really was delicious.

Guess what I got for my birthday??? I really do have the best hubby in the world. He got me a Nikon D5000!!!! I love to take pictures, and this camera is amazing. He also got me photography classes and two amazing lenses. I have been taking pictures all day. If anybody has one, any tips or suggestions are welcome.

My last birth control pill was on Saturday, so now I'm just waiting for my period. Period please come soon!! I can't wait to start cycling again. I have a really good feeling about this cycle, we are soooooo ready. I pray to God that this is our cycle. Since I just turned 29Th everybody was asking what we were waiting for to start having kids? Ughhhhhhh if they only knew. I hope I can tell everybody in a few months " We are pregnant"!!!!!!

I posted some pictures from this weekend, Enjoy!

Cyst Free!!!!!

OMG, my cysts are GONE!!!!!!! Thank you God!!!!! I'm so excited, this is all I really wanted for my birthday ladies and I GOT IT! Wow I feel so happy right now, I can't believe it. My doctor was very optimistic about this cycle. So here is the plan, I keep taking my last three BC pills and as soon as I get my period I will call the office and go in CD 3. My last pill is on Saturday so I really hope that my period comes either Sunday or Monday.

My husband went to the appointment with me and he was soooooo happy as well. He's the funniest and the most optimistic person I know, he's never sad always in a great mood, and he has been my rock through this long six months. Today when Dr. H said that my cysts were gone his eyes got watery and he had the biggest smile on his face. He told me " Baby, I told you that God was going to take care of us". I'm so blessed to have such an amazing and supportive partner! So thank you baby for always putting a smile on my face, I love you!

I'm starting to celebrate my birthday tomorrow. All my friends are coming over for some Tapas and wine, and on Friday morning a group of us are going to Key West to keep the party weekend going. Hey this may be my last year without a baby so I need to party it up right? I hope everybody has an amazing weekend. Thank you for all your comment and prayers =)

Anxious for Tomorrow!

Tomorrow I have a doctor's appointment at 10am and I'm soooooo excited! I really hope that my cysts are gone so we have move forward. This is really the only thing that I WANT for my birthday!! So God please only good news!

We are leaving to Key West this weekend with my parents and a couple of friends so it should be a really fun birthday. I already started tanning today since the temperature is 74 degree wohoooo!!! The cold weather is officially gone.

I have 4 birth control pills left, my last pill is on Saturday so by Sunday or Monday my period should come =). I was thinking of maybe starting acupuncture this cycle since some of you are doing it and you really like it. My only fear is the little needles. I know if we can start cycling again I would have to get a shot every day in my belly and blood drawn every other day. But I also know that it would help me a lot. I'm going to start looking to see if I have any Acupuncture clinics around my area.

We went to Europe last September for a month and after that trip we wanted to start trying for a baby. So as I was uploading all the pictures in Kodak Gallery to make an album for each country, and I started crying. How our lives have change after that trip, we had no worries about infertility we thought by December for sure we were going to be pregnant. Little did we know that Clomid was not going to work that I was going to developed cyst and that getting pregnant was not going to be easy. Sometimes I feel that I'm in a dark phase in my life which nobody can tell at all because I'm always laughing but deep down inside I know how I feel. I'm also very grateful because we are beyond blessed with everything else. But just seen everybody around me pregnant or with a baby makes me so sad. God really knows how much we want a child and I trust him 100% that we haven't gotten pregnant for a reason, that right now it's very hard for me to see and understand. I just want to get out of this dark stage and feel happy again. I really hope that this cycle is a great one and that we get our little blessing.

Attached are some pictures from Europe. Enjoy!

Relaxing weekend

Hi Ladies, I just got in the mail the Clearblue Easy Fertility Monitor!! I'm super excited to start using it. Has anybody used it before? I got it because last cycle I missed my ovulation by almost a week. Since I was on my own because my doctor wanted me to cancel the cycle since I had 4 mature follicles and he was scared that I was going to get pregnant with triplets or quadruplets, little did he know. I told him that we still wanted to try and he said we were on our own =(. So long story short we missed our ovulation days. I truly thought I was pregnant I had all the symptoms in the world. But it wasn't our time yet.

Since I'm still spotting a little bit even though I'm taking BC (9 days left) I'm going in next Wednesday for an ultrasound and blood work. I pray to God that the 3 cyst are gone and I'm ready to cycle. That would be the best birthday gift EVER!!!! I also lost 4lb of the 5lb that I gained during the injections last cycle. So I'm ready to start.

This weekend my husband is going hunting with his Dad and one of his friends. Sooooo because I'm such a chicken and can't stay home alone my mom and my little sister are staying with me for the whole weekend. Wohoooooo. On Friday we are going shopping, on Saturday we have a spa day and on Sunday my whole family is coming over for lunch. I love spending time with my family they make me laugh so much and I kind of forget about TTC for a while.

I thank all of you for reading my blog, I'm new at this blog thing but I'm starting to like it a lot, specially all your amazing stories so thank you!

What's going on in my little world

So the PGA tour is going on as I write this in my backyard, so there's tons of people walking around and the traffic around my house is insane! Last year we got tickets but I don't know if is just me but I find Golf super boring, we had a great time though because we were drinking and hanging out with our friends. This year I don't think we will get tickets since Tiger Woods is not even playing.

I have 11 days left on my BC yayyyyyy can't wait!! But on Sunday I completely forgot to take my pill and Monday morning I had a surprise visitor MY PERIOD! I took a pill yesterday and today but I'm still spotting. I'm so scared that the reason why I got my period is because the 3 huge cysts are still there ahhhh I would be so sad. But I don't feel anything, not even when I work out and do lunges or abs do I feel anything in my lower abdomen. Should I call my doctor? Or should I wait? I sure hope I didn't mess this up.

One of my best friends calls me today that she is late by 6 days what???? She's still in nursing school and her boyfriends lives in Atlanta. She was there for two weeks last month so she thinks that maybe something happened. We are doing a pregnancy test at my house tomorrow. I don't know how I'm going to react if it comes out positive! I really hope I can keep myself together. Of course I will be happy for her but at the same time I will be a bit sad that I'm still not pregnant.

What a great weekend!!

Hi ladies, I hope everybody had an amazing weekend. We partied like if we were 21 again jaja. Friday night was one of my friend's birthday and we went to a Club in South Beach that we used to go to a lot before we got married. I forgot how good those days were, not a care in the world....wow how time flies!!!! We got a little bit "happy" had a few drink and did many shots lol. It was an awesome night. We ended up eating pizza at 4am like we used to do 3 years ago.

On Saturday on of my best friends turned 30 and we also went to South Beach to a wine bar. We had an amazing time. My friend was sooooo happy and she had a blast. She has been kind of down since she lost her job a couple of weeks ago, and has not been able to find a new one. But after a few bottles of wines she was loving life. So it was a great night.

Today we went to mass, hang out with our families and had brunch with friends. So overall I had a great weekend, didn't really have time to think about TTC, thank God!

I have 13 days left on the BC and I can't wait to finish. I thought this wait time was going to be a lot harder but since I have been trying so hard to stay busy time is flying by. I'm going to end my weekend with the final episode of Giuliana and Bill. I love them!! Does anybody watch the show??? They are also having trouble in the baby making department and last episode they did IUI so today they will tell them if they are pregnant or not. She had a higher chance this time because she did the injections. I really hope they are!!

A little bit about my amazing life =)

I wanted to tell you guys a quick story about my life so you can get to know me better. I was born in Cuba, I came to the US with my whole family in 1993 . I started 8Th grade here in the US and that is where I learned how to speak English =). Went to High School and met 3 of my 5 best friend, Giuli, Denise and Danette the other two I met through college, Valeria and the other one is the wife of my hubby's best friend Betsy (my goddaughter's mom) . Went to college and graduated with a Civil Engineering degree. Worked for an amazing engineering company for 5 years but I didn't like the actual engineering work, it was wayyyyyyyyyyyy to boring. I'm very outgoing and love to meet and talk to people and in the engineering world people are not really like that. So I found myself planning all the company's events and I loved it! And eventually started my own company =)

How did I meet the love of my life? Well I was 18yrd old and engaged to a guy that left to the Navy ( Crazy I know) and my mom and I decided to go to the bank and open a checking account for me since I was already old enough. So I walk into the bank and this handsome guys comes up to me and tells me I will be right with you. Mind you the bank was full of customers that had been waiting for a while but he got me right in, he made me wait less than 5 minutes. So as soon as we sat down he asked me for my drivers license. When he sees my address he start asking "You live at 4530 sw 103 street? Are you sure is not NW? " I said yes that's my address so he continues to ask "is your neighbor this crazy guy that has a truck?" and I said yes that's my neighbor. At this point I was like wow what a stalker!!! and he says YOU ARE MY NEIGHBOR!!!!! I thought, What??? How come I have never seen this hot guy? It turns out we lived a house away from each other for 8 years and had never seen each other. So after that everything was history. We dated for 5 years before we got engaged and last February made 10 years that we have been together in total counting boyfriend and girlfriend, engagement and marriage. Wow!!! Time goes by so fast!!!! Believe it or not I still get butterflies in my stomach when he comes back from a business trip. I love him more and more everyday. He really is the best husband in the world.

I'm so happy with my life, I have been extremely blessed with an amazing husband, doggie, family and friends. My family is huge and we have get togethers at least once a month we are very close. I also have a little sister that is 15 years younger than me she's 13 and she's my baby. My parents are amazing, very loving and my friends wow I couldn't ask for better friends. My dog Austin is my child and he's my partner, we take him everywhere with us.I feel very lucky to have the life that I have, I know God has a plan for us even though sometimes I feel frustrated and lost I know that he's there taking care of my only problem INFERTILITY.

So I hope I didn't put you guys to sleep with my boring story, but that's a little bit about me. As per the birth control count I have 17 days left but I'm still spotting, should I call my doctor?? Im keeping myself busy busy busy for now. I thank all of you for reading my blog, all of your stories are so amazing!!!

19 more days to go....

Hello bloggie friends, I had a great weekend. Saturday was my goddaughter birthday and it came out sooooooooooo cute. I got her the cutest Minnie Mouse dress, last week when I was in Disney and she got to wear it on her birthday. Even though almost all of my friends are pregnant and they were all at the party talking about babies, it was not that hard...maybe because I was drinking some wine and feeling great jaja. Sunday we had dinner with a really good friend of mine that I'm her wedding planner and of course they don't' have any babies yet so it was nice to disconnect from the baby talk for a while.

I'm feeling really good, I started working out again yesterday and eating super healthy. So I hope I can drop the five pounds that I gained during last cycle because of soooooo many follicles. I need to get my bikini body back before my birthday which I have 18 days to go. We are going to Key West with 8 more couples and everybody is in shape. I'm also planning my friend's bday she's the first one out of all of us to turn 30!!! So I want to do something really fun, just the girls maybe a spa day or a mini trip somewhere, any ideas?

I have 19 days to go with the birth control!! ahhh I really hope this three cysts are gone by next month so we can start again. Last night I kept waking up and thinking about this whole baby making journey. Why is it that some couples get pregnant so fast and others need to wait years before they get lucky? It's so emotionally exhausting!!!! But I have faith that we will be bless with a baby soon. Today Im taking care of my goddaughter and while I was feeding her I was thinking how ready Im for a baby. So God whenever you are READY WE ARE ALSO READY!

...let the countdown begin...

Good morning bloggies!! Beautiful morning here in Florida about 60 degrees and really sunny. Today is a very special day. My goddaughter Victoria is turning 1!!!!!! I'm totally in love with her, I take care of her at least twice a week for a few hours while her mommy works. The theme for the party is Mickey Mouse Club House. Since I just went to Disney last week I bought the cutest outfit to wear today, I will post pictures later.

Today is going to be a great day but very challenging too. Can you believe everybody at the party is either pregnant or already has a baby??? ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh crazy I know! So I just hope they don't ask me anything. I hate that stupid questions..so what are you guys waiting for?? You guys are next? bla bla bla.

I started taking my BC yesterday so I only have 20 days left, wohoooooooooooooo!! I really hope times goes by super fast. We have a BBQ tomorrow at some friends house and a movie date. So we will be busy.

What is everybody doing this weekend? I hope you have a great one.

Loving Disney

Hi guys, I feel a lot better today =), Disney World make me soooooooo happy! We are staying at the Animal Kingdom Resort and there's lots of animals walkding around, its very pretty and peaceful. I will post a couple of pictures. I think Im going to have a plan for the next 21 days starting on saturday, I need to be super busy so I don't think about the fact that I have three huge cyst in my right ovary. Here are some ideas:

• Redecorate the house



• Work out everyday



• Start planning our anniversary trip



• Organize the office



• Make photo albums for 2009



• Teach Austin (our English Bulldgod) a new trick

I hope I can accomplish all of them. I need to lose about 4 pounds from the injections that I took last cycle, I still feel very bloated and I can totally tell in my clothes, ahhhhhhhhh I gained weight for nothing =(

Talking about my english bulldog Austin, he makes me the happiest and proudest mommy in the world. We love him so much!!! Since I work from home he's my partner we go everywhere together Im totally in love with him. He's 2 years old.

Can't wait to go to Epcot tomorrow, we are going to drink around the world!!! Wohooooo

How did this happen?

I went to the doctor today because I got my period last night and they wanted to do blood work and a sonogram to see how everything goes going before starting the injections again. Well the minute that the nurse saw my ovaries she told me that I had a few cysts. There were three cyst and they are HUGE!!!!! I almost started crying while my doctor and the nurse were telling me that this is completely normal that this things happen and all I would heard was bla bla bla . Wow I'm not sure how this became so hard!

I feel so broken but the last thing that I'm going to do is give up. God has a plan and even though its very hard for me to understand now He will bless us with a child one day. My hubby and I are going to Disney World for 3 days so that should be a lot of fun so I won't think about this wasted cycle.

The good thing about this cycle is that I get to drink on my birthday and I can start working out again! Wohoooo

My Secret Place

Hello ladies, I don't even know how to start but here it goes. My name is Zully and I'm 28 years old (will be 29 in a couple of weeks ahhh). I have an amazing life, and feel extremely bless with the best husband, doggie, family and friends in the world. One thing that you should know about me is that I HATE to write, I'm a civil engineer/event planner so I love numbers and not letters. I started this blog because I think is a great way to release my emotions and meet amazing ladies that are going though the same thing that I'm struggling with, INFERTILITY!

A little bit of my story, I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome so I don't ovulate on my own and I would get my period once a year.

2000 February, Met my hubby at the bank he opened my checking acct when I was 18 yrs old and we realized we were next door neighbors for 5 years before we met. Love at first sight!!!
2005 December, Graduated a Civil Engineering degree yayyyyy (one of the happiest days of my life)
2006 September,We are engaged!!!
2007 May, We get married!!!
2008 Taking BBC we don't want babies yet
2009 February, Off BBC I want to clean my body
2009 September, went to Europe for a month
2009 October, Let's start trying Clomid 50mg, one follicle BFN
2009 November, Clomid 50mg again, no follicles that were big enough for ovulation (super sad)
2009 December, Clomid 150mg, one follicle BFN
2010 January, Clomid 150mg, no follicles
2010 January, met with my doctor and decided that Clomid was not for us lets move on to injections.
2010 February, started injections I felt super bloated
2010 February on CD 12 went to the doctor for a sonogram and had 4 mature follicles, my doctor wanted me to cancel the cycle thinking that it was too risky for the changes of multiples and we said no, we went on our own and yesterday I took a test and it was BFN

I had a great feeling about this cycle since we had so many follicles but it just didn't work. My heart broke in pieces after I saw the negative results. But today I'm feeling much better and ready to move on to the next cycle. I started spotting a little bit tomorrow and started getting period cramps which I should either Thursday or Friday. At least I know that I ovulated so that gives me peace of mind. I have faith that God is going to bless us with a little one and I just need to be patience. Thanks for reading my blog =)