Dear God thank you for our baby!!

I can't believe what I'm about to write this but the results are in and WE ARE PREGNANT!!!!! My heart is full of love and happiness. This is the most amazing feeling in the world.

Last night we were getting ready for the corporate run and I went to the bathroom and I was spotting. Immediately I thought it was over. I came out of the bathroom and told my husband that I had gotten my period and that I didn't want to talk about it just wanted to move on to the next cycle. But as I was saying that tears were just coming down my face I felt my heart breaking into million pieces. So my hubby tells me "it's not over yet, let's wait until tomorrow". He went to Walgreens and got me a test. I for sure thought it was going to come out NEGATIVE. We left the room and started packing the car with the stuff that we needed for the run. We both came back inside the house and my husband gets the test and start bawling......I felt so bad for him because I knew how much he wanted for us to be pregnant and all of the sudden he shows me the test and I couldn't believe. WE ARE PREGNANT!!!

I called the nurse right away and told her that I was spotting but the test came back positive. She said that I couldn't run or even walk the 5k. I needed to be on bed rest, no sex and no heavy lifting to just take it easy. Today we went for blood work and it came back perfect!! I don't have anymore spotting but I do have a little bit of cramping and the Dr.H said that it was normal. We go back on May 14Th for our first ultrasounds and we can't wait!! Tonight we are telling our families.

Thank you God and Virgen of La Leche for blessing us with this amazing miracle and thank you all supporting us through this incredible journey. Please pray for us that this baby grows very healthy. We are soooooo happy!!!

Is it Friday yet?

Hi ladies, I hope everybody had an awesome weekend. On Friday we went to my SIL house to book our trip in June, they are our traveling partners we have a blast together. On Saturday I took care of my cousin's babies during the day and at night we had movie night we our friends (both pregnant) at our house. Sunday we spent the day at Lincold Road drinking German beer and that was a lot of fun. Even thought I don't drink beer I like to go and people watch.

So Friday is the big day, but for some weird reason I'm FREAKING out!!! I have cramps at least four times a day, is that normal? So I keep going to the bathroom every half an hour to check and see if I got my period ughhhhh, so far nothing thank God. I called the nurse which works for Dr. H and I'm helping with her wedding and asked her about the cramps. She said that since my ovaries were so big they are going back to their normal size and that's why I have cramps..but I don't know they feel just like period cramps. I'm so scared to see blood!!

I hope Friday comes very very soon and without my period!!

Footprints in the Sand

Every first and third Wednesday of the month we have prayer group with 8 couples that are really good friends with us and that also Catholic and yesterday it was at our house. Can you believe every single girl was pregnant expect me??? I felt so uncomfortable!! The only thing they would talk about was babies babies babies. I kept trying to change the conversation but it was impossible and of course the little remarks about when and why we were waiting bla bla bla was getting to me. Since we were leading prayer group my husband spoke about having Patience and how God's timing is always better than ours. For a moment there I thought I was going to start crying but I kept thinking that it was ok and that our time was probably here or that it was going to come soon. I know that he choose this topic because of me because he's a very patience person but I'm not and this has been the hardest thing we have ever gone through. Here's a poem that I always read and I know he's carrying me right now through this dark times. Everytime that I read it I cry because I have felt alone and/or forgotten so many times and I know that he has always been there with me while I was crying and suffering.




Thank you all for your great comments. Since there is 4 pregnant friends that are walking the Cooperate run I told them yesterday that I rather walk because my knee has been hurting and my trainer said to walk not run. They were all happy because I was walking with them =)

I have 8 days to go and time is going by sooooooo slow!! I feel like I'm going a bit crazy, the only thing that I think of is if I'm pregnant or not ahhhh. I need Friday April 30th to get here 911!!

Running Drama

Good morning ladies, I went to sleep yesterday thinking if I was already getting pregnancy symptoms...ummmm Wrong! I google today side effects of Progesterone Suppositories and they mimic every pregnancy symptoms. My boobs are super sore and they are bigger, I get a little bit nausea if I don't eat for a long period of time, I'm super bloated and I get night sweats...all due to the suppositories. On top of everything every time that you go to the bathroom you get this oily stuff..Gross! Does anybody know any other source of progesterone that is less messy?

I have 10 more days to go do blood work, but next week on Wednesday I have the corporate run and my friends and I always run it and we have an awesome time trying to pass each other. After we BBQ and drink all night. But this year I don't know what to do, my husband doesn't want me to run at all, which I understand him. He tells me he doesn't want to risk anything after everything we have been through. But what do I say? How I'm going to tell my friends sorry I can run or drink after..they are going to be suspicious for sure! I need to come up with a plan soon, two of my friends are pregnant so I can walk with them but I have never done that. I'm extremely competitive and love to beat their running time. Any ideas on what should I do??

Attached is a picture of my hubby's nephew he's adorable! I can't wait for this to be us.

Random Facts about me

1. I'm not the world greatest speller jaja I'm sure you guys know that by now
2. My second toe is bigger than my big toe
3. I played the piano since I was 6 years until I graduated at 15 and have never played since
4. I love to drink wine specially with a great meal
5. I hate wet sand but I love the beach
6. My favorite TV shows are Weeds, Modern Family, Greys Anatomy, Divine Design, Giuliana and Bill and Desperate House wife
7. Speaking about TV I probably watch TV less than 4 hours a week..DH is a tv hogger
8. My hubby is as handsome as the first day that I met him (I think now he's hotter)
9. I saw snow for the first time when I was 20 years old
10. First time that I went to Europe was last year
11. I hate horror movies
12. I have never had surgery
13. My hubby broke my wrist 4 years after we were dating playing tackle football ouchhhh, made him blow dry my hair everyday
14. My parents have been married and divorced twice to each other
15. I have 5 best friends
16. I tent to laugh a lot and loud
17. I think my husband is the funniest person I know
18. I hate doing laundry
19. Love to decorate my house
20. Don't like the smell of cigarettes
21. I'm the decorator for my church
22. My sister is 15 years younger than me
23. Sunflowers and Orchids are my favorite flowers
24. Learned how to speak English at 13yrs old my first language is Spanish
25. My first job was working at CVS in the pharmacy at 17 years old
26. Met my husband opening my back account
27. My grandparents were married for 45 years
28. Love to Dance and sign specially driving
29. I have the most amazing English bulldog in the world, I love him so much
30. I consider you guys my friends
31. I hate getting older (its pretty scary)
32. I wish I can be like mom when I have kids
33. I love talking to old people
34. My best vacation is going to an island with a great beach
35. I hate cold weather
36. We want 4 kids
37. Love to hear a child laugh
38. My favorite movies are "Old School", "Napoleon Dynamite", "Hangover", "The notebook"
39. I love the sounds of the ocean waves
40. My dream job will be an entertaiment reporter
41. I have a sweet tooth, would trade any meal for dessert
42. I'm the oldest out of 17 cousins just from my mom's side
43. I was born in Cuba
44. I walk while texting or BBM
45. I'm a conservative
46. My favorite afternoon with my hubby and friends is to go to brunch and go bar hopping all day
47. I would love to write a book for children
48. Love expensive purses (I'm limited to one a year =)
49. Our most romantic picnic was in front of the Eiffel tower
50. I'm a civil engineer (love math)
51. I need to sleep 8 hours every night
52. Was never a morning person until I got married
53. Went to Bora Bora for our honeymoon
54. Believe that my hubby can be an awesome motivational speaker
55. I'm only 5'2'' and DH is 6'3''
56. Dislike Snakes and crocodiles
57. I pray to God every night
58. My favorite color is yellow
59. I love nothing more than to see others happy
60. I have not cried in a month wohoooo
61. I love to have get together at my house at least once a week
62. I consider my selft extremely lucky for the life that I have
63. Still get butterflies in my stomach when DH comes back from a trip
64. Would never leave my house without doing my hair and makeup
65. I don't like my belly button
66. In Cuba I went to a music school only 12 kids per class
67. I had the best childhood, I wish my kids can be as happy as I was as a child
68. Obsessed with MAC makeup
69. I'm always late
70. I get really hyper at night time

Baby making is going well, I made an appointment for April 30th to do blood work..so let the countdown begin..14 more days. I hope everybody has an amazing weekend!

Soooo happy!

Hi ladies, I'm so sorry that I have been MIA but my computer got a virus and I took it to Best Buy and today was when I got it back. Let me tell you what has been going on since Monday, I went for blood work and a sonogram and the follicles were going slowly... Tuesday was the same thing and today my biggest follicle was 19mm and I have two that are 16mm. Here's the plan trigger tonight and have intercourse tomorrow and Friday. OMG I can't believe this is really happening!!! I ask each and every one of you to please say a little prayer for us, this is so unreal and I know that God will take care of us like he always does. I REALLY hope this is it!!

The inside of my elbows are sooooo bruised from taking so much blood out I keep trying to hide them but yesterday one of my friend asked me if I was really into donating blood jaja I told her yes that my veins move and that's why I have so many bruises. Oh well I hate to lie but I couldn't tell her what is really going on. I just found out on sunday that one of my best friends ( Betsy the mother of my god-daughther) is pregnant again. I'M SO HAPPY!! If I also get pregnant the babies will grow up together and that would be so amazing.

Everything is in God's hands and I trust him with all my heart. I know that he will bless us with a child wether is now or later, so I really need to let go and let God! Wohoooo I'm very excited!!

There's Hope...

Hi Ladies, today I went to the doctor bright and early and on the ultrasound I had a few 10mm follicles and my biggest one was 13mm. I was a bit shocked because on CD 12 last cycle my follicles were 16mm,18mm, 19mm and 20mm, but the nurse said since I have a lower dose this time my follies are growing a bit slow, which is fine because I really don't want to have another cycle cancelled. My doctor only wants one or two follicles maximum so I'm hoping for maybe one more to get big so I have a better chance. My estrogen went from 99 to 375 so I'm super excited!!!! Let's go Follies, this is our cycle!!! We go back Monday morning for more monitoring and hopefully I can trigger either Tuesday or Wednesday.

How's everyone's weekend ? Last night we went to dinner with great friends and we had a really nice time. Tonight we are going to an awesome restaurant in South Beach that I've been wanting to go for a while, so my amazing hubby is taking me tonight for a romantic date...I'm a lucky girl! I hope everybody is having a great weekend, thank you for all of your great comments last post.

A Bit Scared......

Hi ladies, today I went to my appointment at 10am and was happy to see that my follies are growing. Today I had 25 follicles ahhhhh, 7 more than Sunday but only 8 are growing strong...they are between 8mm and 10mm. The nurse just called me to let me know that my Estrogen level was not high enough and they are increasing my dosage. She said that on Sunday it was 77 and today was 99. Does anybody knows what that means? I'm so scared that they will cancel this cycle because of this. I asked her if it was really bad and she said that by increasing my dose they level should increase. I have never had this problem before. Ughhh I feel that every cycle I have a new challenge..this is exhausting!

I'm trying really hard to stay POSITIVE, I keep telling myself "It's going to work". So here's the plan I will increase my dose by 75 IU and I go back on saturday for more blood work and an ultrasounds. Has anybody had this problem before? What should my level be at CD 9? Please say a little prayer for us.

Beach time and I feel fat!

Hi ladies, thank you so much for your sweet comments. I'm friends with a nurse from Dr. H office and she saw my report from Sunday (18 follicles) and told me that she hopes that only a few follicles grow if not Dr. H said that he was going to cancel my cycle again. Ughhhhhhhh I hope I only get 2 or 3 max. We will see tomorrow.

So today I went to the beach with my best friend to celebrate her birthday (I know we celebrate sooo many birthdays this month) and I looked at all my bikinis and all of them make me look so chubby !! Last month since I was taking birth control I lose the pounds that I gained from the previous cycle (I gained 5 pounds with the injections) but now I'm back again. I feel so bulky this injections make me so bloated and it's just a horrible feeling because there's nothing that I can do, I'm working out, running and the pounds are still coming back.

On Sunday we are going out on the boat with some friends and I'm so not looking forward to it, this is going to be our life until the summer is over boat, beach, boat, beach, boat. Showing my belly now a days is a big deal for me and on top of everything I have a bruise in every single injection spot. Does this happen to everybody else or it's just me??? My next door neighbor also did the injections and she gained 23 pounds ahhhhhhhhhhh I don't mind gaining the weight if this means that I'm going to get pregnant but just to gain weight and not get pregnant is not fun. I'm going bikini shopping tomorrow I hope I can find something that makes me look thinner lol.

I want to wish my awesome friend, Such a Good Egg http://suchagoodegg.wordpress.com/ an awesome Happy Birthday!!!!!! Thank you for always supporting me, even though I have never met you in person I feel like I known you for years. Have a great birthday my friend, let this year be our year to get pregnant! XOXO

Happy Easter!

Happy Easter everybody! We woke up today at 5:30am and went to the most beautiful sunrise mass. The birds were singing and the sun was coming up it was just an amazing way to start Easter Sunday. After mass we went to breakfast since our appointment was not until 8:00am, and time was going by soooooo slow! I wanted to be in that room already. So we get to the office and I was called in within 5 minutes. They drew blood and did a sonogram. I have 10 follicles in my right ovary and 8 in my left ovary!!! Yayyyyyy!!! I was so happy, they are growing little by little. I felt so blessed, everything is looking great for this cycle. My doctor wants me to continue with the injections same dose (37.5 IU) and I go back on Wednesday.

I'm trying not to get wayyyyyy too happy because I have been here before and I know what can happen. But at the same time I want to stay POSITIVE and think that THIS IS going to be our cycle. Today was an awesome day, and I thank God for all our blessing. I have the best husband, family, dog, friends and bloggie friends in the world. Attached is a picture of my gorgeous Goddaughter. I hope everybody had a great Easter =)